And I was panicked because I had bought a wedding gown and I couldn’t get into it. And I was, you know, about 30 pounds overweight at this time. And I began to really see that food controlled my life. I weighed myself nine or ten times a day, the first thing in the morning after I ate, you know, before lunch. I weighed myself constantly. And finally I came to a crisis place when I went to try my wedding gown that I had bought and could not get into.
And I came home and I threw myself down on the floor and I started crying and I said, “God, you know, I can’t lose this weight, and I’m going to have a weight problem for the rest of my life. And I can’t eat like a normal person because I can starve and not lose weight, or I can binge and, God, I just can gain 15 pounds overnight.” That’s the way I looked at it.
And God said to me, “Lisa, your weight is an idol to you and food is an idol to you.” He said, “If you will repent of this” and an idol is something we give our strength to or draw our strength from He said, “If you will stop measuring yourself by what you weigh,” because He said, “Lisa, you are not what you weigh.”
RR: People watching need to hear that tonight, you are not what you weigh.
L: And that’s what this book is about, you are not what you weigh. And I had always measured myself by what I weighed, what the scales said I was was what I was. And so God told me, “You are not what you weigh.” And He said, “Lisa, if you will repent of this, measuring yourself by your weight and also filling the void in your life with food that only I can fill,” He said, “I will heal your metabolism.”
And I said, “O God, you know, forgive me.” And this was back in 1982. And I fell on my face. I said, “O God, forgive me.” And He said, “Now don’t weigh yourself ever again.” He said, “You stop this incessant weighing of yourself.” He said, “You put the scale away.” And He said, “I want you to go on a three-day fast.” I said, “God, You just told me never to diet again, not to weigh myself, and now You’re telling me to fast.”And He said, “Well, Lisa, a fast doesn’t change your appearance.” You know, the world diets, and Christians are supposed to fast. A diet changes the way you look, but a fast changes the way you live.
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